After we moved to Illinois we started slowly
making friends/acquaintances. During the summer of 2015 we went to a
party at a friend's house. While I was there I met a woman who gave me
her number and said we needed to hang out. I thought that was pretty
cool. So, her and I started hanging out. After a couple of times we
started going to Taco Tuesday together since at that time Luke was a
baby and I wasn't working. We had a great time and became really close. I
hadn't opened up like that to a 'girl friend' in a long time. She ended
up moving right around the corner from me in base housing and it was
even easier to go hang out. This was like the first time in my life I
was excited to actually make a friend. I was never keen on making
friends but I wanted to since I literally just moved there.
My friend and her husband were going through a tough time since I met
her but it got harder when they moved over near us. One day we went to
Taco Tuesday (sometimes at a random restaurant) this time I think we
were in New Baden and she took a picture of us and posted it on some
website/app she was on. She showed me how the guys that were in this
group were saying how good looking and stuff I was. They said I needed
to get on the app too. I really didn't want to. Even though Jeremy and I
weren't 100% happy, I was doing okay. I had cheated on Jeremy numerous
times in the past and I really wanted to work on not being adulterous
anymore. I really wanted to stay faithful to my vows. For the next few
weeks she would show me pictures from the app or post our picture on
there. I did really good with will-power in the beginning. However, come
November I was really stressed with Jeremy always being gone, the boys
driving me up a wall, not being able to find a job and being alone that I
caved. I kept telling myself though that if I got overwhelmed or that
it started to become something that would lead me astray I would delete
it from my phone. All of those thoughts and intentions are good but
that's never how it ends up, is it?
So I'm on the
Kik app and the first person to message me is this guy that my friend
told me about who was adamant about meeting me. He was very polite and
cordial. And oh my lord persistent. He didn't say anything stupid like
others did. Ya know the type of guys that just say stuff to get in your
pants lol. He was very kind. Did I mention he was also very persistent?
He wanted to meet up for lunch and I really didn't want to go that far. I
didn't mind talking platonically but to go meet in person was setting
me up for failure. So, I kept saying no. Well as normal human beings do,
after a certain period of time, again, I caved. However, I had a plan. I
wasn't going to go alone. I made my friend go with me! This way I
wouldn't do anything stupid. So, we went. We had Mexican again on Taco
Tuesday at Zapatas in Collinsville, IL. We got there first and I had my 3
year old and my infant with me at the time. My 3 yr old said mom I have
to pee. So, we went to the bathroom. When I came out of the bathroom
and walked around the corner, I saw him. Oh my was all I could say to
myself. He was 6'4" with the most beautiful blue eyes I had ever seen.
He was also a little rugged looking at that time in his work uniform and
ball cap. Lawd, have mercy is all my mind kept screaming aloud. I was
not used to such a tall man. See, Jeremy was 5'9" and 135lbs. Well
anyway, Dustin hugged me when he saw me. The rest of the 30 minutes
spent at the table was him looking at me and me looking away and then
when I would look at him, he would look away. It was very electric.
There was a definite connection and somehow I don't just think that it
was in our pants ;-). But believe me it was there too! As lunch was
coming to a close, he got up and stated he had to leave. I got up and
hugged him and told him that it was great meeting him. He told me that
he'd like to see me again. I kind of blew that off at the time because I
felt things going the way that they shouldn't. I wanted to follow him
out to his vehicle and kiss the crap out of him but I didn't.
That evening I went over to my friend's to talk to her about how sexy
that man was and what the hell was I doing etc. Well, the temptation
overcame me and I messaged him to come over to her house. He had been
there before without me so he knew exactly where to go. He came through
the front door straight out the back door and locked lips with me
immediately. I thought I was going to lose it. It was that feeling of oh
my goodness I shouldn't be doing this to give me more and don't stop
please. The visit only lasted a few minutes because his wife was
messaging that his son was sick and he needed to come home. We didn't
see each other until January after that one lunch visit.
